i feel juvenile

i feel juvenile.

i feel juvenile..

i feel juvenile...

Satisfied - Church Day

today was a good day!

went to Giant @10.30am to get my ingredients to prepare my special pasta for my special guests.
i was contemplating if i should cook coz i was doing ministry work till 4am in the morning.
but i think my special guests deserve the best! hehe...

started cooking @11.30am and i manage to get everything done by 1.30pm.. a record im happy with.
i think it tasted pretty okay today. tomato base with lotsa mixed herbs, mushrooms, blackpepper, frankfurts, carrots, onions, garlics, salt and some cream... Alan said it tasted 'not too bad'.. hehe. im actually secretly happy with that comment. HE is so stingy with comments especially when Stella is cooking.. hhmph!~

my guests arrived in their cute little blue pinafores... SO CUTE.. hehe..
i can imagine if i have teenage daughters.. so CUTE...
reminds me of my days when i just arrive home and strip off my pinafore..leaving me cool n comfy in my hideous comfy shorts and shirt.. hahha.. good ol Convent days..

anyway, so Nic & Denise (my special guests) and I had a little bit of girls talk.. im now tempted to have a sleepover at their place.. i will ask them for one soon. HAHA.. self invite..

having them over was very nice for me. i have not felt like this for quite some time you know. the feeling of having many females in the same house.. seeing them do girly things like drying their hair, comb their hair n such. i mean... i usually see boys do that.. coz i only have brothers. having a sister doesnt sound like a bad idea now :)

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cell group discussion about Dating, Love and Sex was quite interesting.
im glad they were open enough to talk about it although some were too young to fully comprehend. haha.
their comments varies much depending on their age, exposure and family background.
hope to have more of such discussions in the future!

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had my 1st meeting with all the members of the Creative Ministry (CM).
i would say i am very pleased during the meeting and also with the outcome of the meeting.
we were able to hear each others views and passion on CM, their vision, their plans and also how they want to develop their departments. they do have some really cool ideas.

i am very proud of the people involved and am looking forward to work with them.

there will be a lot of work to do, but i suppose it is all for the good and betterment of the church:)

oh. we had good food too!
classic malay nasi beriyani with acar and ayam masak merah and caramel pudding!

* sinloong says i need more pictures to make my blog nice. otherwise its too boring..
yeah.. i agree... haha.. cannot be too lazy to take pics..


alrite.
i am very happy.

got a FREE Strawberry Sundae and also the McD Coca Cola Cup -Basketball (Olympics 2008).
Thanks to my ex cell leader.. hehehe.. :P

generally am happy...
la di da dii daaa... nite!

T O T s

haven been updating often enough. bad bad.

have been waking up late.
been late for work for 2days.. lol.. drives my dad mad.. hee
been craving for Marrybrown's fish burger and KFC and Korean Instant Noodles..

I am now very satisfied with all these junks in me..
So tomorrow i shall begin my healthy regime of taking fruits and doing my FIR Sauna..
so looking forward to pamper myself..

my pimples are popping up coz i have been very unkind to myself and picking fight with people whom i find irritated with.
haha. so juvenile.
never mind.. shall just let myself go and absorb into the world of 'i dont care'...
feels pretty relieving you know..

but i have moved on..
now im thinking about how to make more $ to settle all the financial commitments, give to church building and mission fund, get my degree, how to make TEENz cellgroup a better place, how to have more fun n deeper frenship with my girls, how to lead Creative Ministry, how to lead LucyBelle Spa, how to land myself with Mr. Right Hot Stuff, hee hee, how to bring up my child (haha.. thats too far right..) erm, whats the next hair style to adopt, what pet to get.. bla bla bla...

after having all those junks.. i am now sooo motivated to move on..
hahaha... funny how things work eh..


ah... no time to design my blog ler..
its getting boring.. yawn...
but its not the first thing on my mind.. so its ok lah.

till then.
ciao~

New Emotions

been thinking alot these days.
feeling quite empty recently.
it is rare that i feel like this.
and when i feel like this, my emotions get the better of me.




there are a few things and people that are very dear to me.
but these days i seem to be losing them.

perhaps i have been too busy with life to care for these little details.

how is it that the friendship that i once had was taken for so lightly and so for granted.
now it seems like a lot of effort is required on my side to make it work.
i wonder if we will ever respond the same way as before.
i use to take for granted that you will always pick up my call, listen to me, talk to me, be there for me, eat with me, laugh with me, do stupid things with me, entertain me .. and much more...

so yeah, guess its me..
must have been too numb to want to do anything more to maintain the friendship..
kinda miss the ol times..

another thing..
i used to be among a certain group of friends whom i did enjoy hanging out with.. and they are always listening to me.. (haha) and i feel i do have certain influence over them (not in a dominating way tho).. and after disappearing for awhile due to my busy schedule, it seems like things has changed.

like they say, out of sight.. out of mind..

so sometimes i feel like this empty person.
who seems to know all these familiar people that i see, and whom i once knew quite well, yet deep inside, i have no idea who they are NOW and its just not connecting you know.

it doesnt happen all the time with all my old friends.
but it happens often enough for a large group of people.

and thus, i am currently frustrated coz im not very well connected.
(like how Nicole gets frustrated when she cant get online... hahha)

so its like you know, the fact that you are losing your friends and influence and relationships with people.
either its me being too busy/ignorant/sensitive/possessive OR it is just them (yeAH!)..
OR.. the most diplomatic conclusion is that.. everyone is evolving, and changing.. so its not easy to keep up with the changes. even i myself am changing ...

we were all young and innocent.. and now we are all too busy learning the ropes in life and busy growing up.. so yeah.. guess its time to let go some stuffs and go build some stuffs..

all in the package of living in your mid twenties :)

hopefully will get a taste of some good ol times soon.
really missed it.



p/s: i slightly understand what it feels like to be possessive.. haha.. never felt like that before.. really. it is very weird..